Weightloss - Accepting your Overweight

Today's Date 09/03/2013

Today I almost feel apart in a clothing store as I looked back at my reflection I was mortified by what I saw.

I am obese. BAM! When did this happen I know I'm overweight but I really didn't notice how much overweight I really was. When your overweight it affects your whole body from the amount of tissue your carrying to where the weight is positioned on your body. It affects your bones, muscles, skin, hair, your breath, your digestive system and even your mood and your organs.

Its much more that I need to lose weight, I really need to think about my body and what I can do to make it healthier and happier. What I can do to put it back in a natural sync as appose to where my body is at the moment.

My body is crying out to be healthy and for a long time now I have just given up but this year my doctor is concerned that I have POCS (google it) because my body has stopped having a period.

I really don't want that to be my reality especially because it can stop your from being able to have a family. I have never really thought about wanting to have a family, but I have know thus far I am in no way healthy enough to endeavor that path.

I thought about the things in life that I want to achieve this year and so far I am making a effort to
1. Save money
2. Be more challenged in my job by studying
3. Increase my ability to be challenged, increase memory, attention and problem solving by starting brain training through luminosity.

My next steps are to apply myself and get organised to lose the weight that is affecting my whole body and quality of life as I want to have a long life full of adventure not a short life full of regret.

I have to admit I did feel sorry for myself today, but I am proud by the fact that I did not cry.
Then I got angry at myself for putting myself in the position that I am in today. The biggest thing I have realised is that I have a addiction to food and I over consume food depending on my mood or to be frank just because. Now I have to make a decision do I want to be healthy, have nice skin and a normal digestive and reproductive system not to mention a better more balanced mood or do I want to stay the way I am and be constantly wishing for a change.

Well contray to popular belief you can't wish yourself anything. You can't snap your fingers and be at your goal weight. Nor can you live on diet shakes or pills either.

My goal this year is to lose the unhealthy weight this is affecting my body and making feel and look so disgusting and ill. My goal is for my body to function normally again, to have clear skin, soft shiny hair and a healthy body that is strong and toned.

I have no intentions on looking like someone who is not me or fitting in to a specific size of jeans. I just want to be the best version of me I can be and I want to be the healthiest me I can be too!

Watch this space my journey will be well document hear in my blog the good the bad and yes the ugly side of losing weight and gaining my life back.

Xox Kitty